Sunday, August 29, 2010
I went for church service with my aunt this morning. She went to the adult session whilst I went to the youth session. It was awesome even though I couldn't understand parts of the chim chinese language spoken throughout the whole service. Dayeem! The last time I attended such long chinese lecture-like sessions was like what..2-3 years back? All the way back to my secondary school days? Aye aye, that pretty much explained how often I converse in chinese ever since I graduated from high school.
Nevertheless, the service was meaningful and I've learnt quite a few things! :)
In fact, throughout the service today, I've learnt something rather important. And, yet the thing that amused me most, was that the something I've learnt was in a spiritual book which I've started reading over the past week named "A New Earth - Awakening to Your Life's Purpose". That previous post of mine regarding "Passion of Christ" might be a coincidence. But, what, a 2nd coincidence? Within a couple of weeks? Woah! That's definitely something!
Here's a little summary of what I've learnt from today's service.
Have you ever thought about this; "who am I?" You might say that you are a student, studying in (whatever) school. But, no, that's what you are doing. Leave out everything else, be it your school, your riches, or whatever regarding identification, and ask yourself "who am I?"
Yes, you might find this question a little silly and dumb. But, think about this, if you don't even know who you are and don't even know yourself well..what makes you think that you are able to know others well? You gotta know your partner well enough in order to be together with him/her, no? Likewise, if you don't even know and understand yourself well enough, what makes you think that you are capable of knowing your partner well? Thus, what makes you think that the relationship between you and your partner will last, even without knowing yourself well enough in the first place?
People all over the world are busy with their own stuffs daily; from business works to housekeepings. So busy they are, that people tend to lose their consciousness and eventually don't even know who they are. The recent news regarding the Hongkong tourists killed by the sacked Phillipine policeman. That news alone explains everything.
So, now, try asking yourself this question.."Who am I?" No worries, if you have trouble answering that. Take some time out alone, reach deep inside you and understand yourself.
The pastor then added: God has always been separating things out for us and giving us time alone, it is just the matter of how you use those precious moments.
Productive day!(:
imissyou.
9:50 PM
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Here's a little update.
School's been good, putting more efforts into practices and rehearsals. I've just went to sch for some choir rehearsals with my buds; Oliver and Paulina, today. Haas! It was rather fun especially with that usual nonsense dude Oliver. All those jokes and fooling-arounds. Haas, it would be awkward if I were to find such buddy un-laughable.
Big topic of this week: I was sooooo freakinggg close to losing my wedding ring finger.
Busy I was, cutting vegs for my mom. chop,chop,chop! And, there goes the tip of my finger. Hell, I swear that was by far the bloodiest thing I have ever seen in my whole entire life. Good gracious, thank God that my nervous system was pretty responsive to that.
Almost 3 weeks now, and I am still keeping that faith. Those prayers for you, will eventually come true! Truth be told, those bittersweet memories are still at the back of my head. I have no plans of discarding them just yettttt, for they are those timelines in my mind that brings me back down the memory lane. All the bitter and sweetie little ones, just matter too much to me. Events and happenings fade away over time, memories don't.
I will be meeting my aunt for morning church service tmr! My 2nd time to her church, but I'm still excited!(:
I could still remember my 1st time to her church. It was quite some time back, when I was quite involved in City Harvest Church. Ohh~CHC! I would definitely want to go back there one day. For those who know me well, I am not born a Christian and CHC was the place where I found Christ. Those cellgroups members of mine; Jermaine, Jessie, Jasmine, Evagelynn, Mikki, etc, were just tooooo fantastic not to be missed! Ohhhh..good old timesssss. ((:
When the stage is bare tonight, there's no one else.
Just You and me.
11:11 PM
Saturday, August 21, 2010
Weekend ahead, and the 4th week of my 2nd yr in Lasalle. about 3-4 more weeks to recitals/exams. I was quite heavily criticised about my playing by Mr. Frank during one of my classes. My piece Intermezzo; Op. 118, No. 2 by Brahms, was heavily criticised, from my pedaling to my wrong rubato techniques, etc.
This was what Mr. Frank told me, in front of the whole class; "If you are going to play this for the recitals, I am sorry but I will fail you right away". Damn, how depressing can that be! Especially that I have been practicing that romantic piece ever since my summer vacation. And, it was double depressing, when I was given back my results for last year's results. Oh well, I guess I will need to put in more efforts to buck up.
Mmmmhhhhhmmmmmm.......
This was what Mr. Frank told me, in front of the whole class; "If you are going to play this for the recitals, I am sorry but I will fail you right away". Damn, how depressing can that be! Especially that I have been practicing that romantic piece ever since my summer vacation. And, it was double depressing, when I was given back my results for last year's results. Oh well, I guess I will need to put in more efforts to buck up.
Mmmmhhhhhmmmmmm.......
Schooling, daily and hours-long practices, daily revisions, part-time teaching, at-least-once-a-week gym workouts. Anything and everything else, are LEFT-OUT!
That pretty much sums up everything. More time spent into my practices, lesser time spent on distractions.
Absence makes the heart grows fonder.
11:33 PM
Sunday, August 15, 2010
My brother left for his 6-day field camp this afternoon. My 2nd farewell. This time round, there were no tears. I am gradually getting used to being alone in my room; being more independent, getting my priorities right, doing the right things at the right time, etc.
Even though, my brother was still sick this afternoon, I could see that my brother was brimming with confidence as compared to our first farewell. In fact, I am pretty sure he will overcome the 6-day gruelling field camp, especially with all those letters of motivation from our mom, his girlfriend and me. (:
With all the recent happenings, I would like to thank a couple of my besties who have got me through, especially one person. Thanks constance, thanks for sparing me a couple of hours even though it was nearing midnight ytd!
"We are all imperfect, but by His grace, we are a little different, shining His light, mm."
Does that ring the bell? Haha! Thanks, mm? Imma moving on.. (:
I believe that whenever one loses something, as long as he keeps the faith, he will gain something in return. The world is round; whatever comes around, goes around.
Even though, my brother was still sick this afternoon, I could see that my brother was brimming with confidence as compared to our first farewell. In fact, I am pretty sure he will overcome the 6-day gruelling field camp, especially with all those letters of motivation from our mom, his girlfriend and me. (:
With all the recent happenings, I would like to thank a couple of my besties who have got me through, especially one person. Thanks constance, thanks for sparing me a couple of hours even though it was nearing midnight ytd!
"We are all imperfect, but by His grace, we are a little different, shining His light, mm."
Does that ring the bell? Haha! Thanks, mm? Imma moving on.. (:
I believe that whenever one loses something, as long as he keeps the faith, he will gain something in return. The world is round; whatever comes around, goes around.
"If you have faith when you pray, you will be given whatever you ask for"
[Matthew 21:22]
Ever since I have resumed my school in Lasalle, I feel that I am closer to some of my good friends, where there are some chemistry and bonding; people like Oliver, Jo, and quite surprisingly Janet. Like what my bestie constance have always told me; "Thank God for blessing me, in order to be a blessing to you". (:
Like what I have said in my previous blog post; "With His strength, I will be better and stronger!"
Things are getting better for me. In fact, I am already feeling the thumbs up! Today is one hell of a good day for me! I had fun grocery shopping with my family and went home to practice for 2 hours straight, followed by 3 hours straight of composing a new piece. My praises to Him, for all the blessings He gave me; especially that special talent He gifted me. Without that talent, I wouldn't have came so far and I wouldn't have composed such a nice sorrowful piece. I am simply in love .. in love with Him! ((:
I had a goooood day! I hope you did, too! *thumbs up
I will still be praying for you. Every morning. Every night.
11:37 PM
Friday, August 13, 2010
My brother's back, on thursday! :) But, sick! :(
Oh well, he will be going back for field camp on sunday afternoon. A couple more days, before he sees the motivation letter that I have written for him, prior to the gruelling field camp.
2 weeks of my semester one are officially over, 4-5 more weeks for recitals and exams. Time to pull up my socks and gear up! I am and will make a bigger splash this time round! Minimum time will be spent for unnecessary stuffs like facebook, twitter, blog(though I will take some time out for blogging at least once a week).
Ganbatte!
With one voice, we will sing His praises.
11:21 PM
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Some things are just too obvious, not to be true. After 2 days of rather sleepless nights, I finally managed to grab a fruitful beauty sleep.
I was at my all-time low over the last few days, due to some happenings. In the previous night, My twitter wrote: "Oh God, I need Your strength. Things are just getting bad to worse." I finished my reading the Matthew chapter and had my little prayer before knocking off. Yesterday, I was doing my theory assignments in C303 practice room with Paulina practicing her piece. Jasmin came into the room. About 10mins later, Jasmin asked if I have watched "Passion of Christ". I had no idea what that is, so I joined and watched. Little did I know, that "Passion of Christ" is a movie back in 2005. However, it was my first time hearing and watching a movie called "Passion of Christ".
Merely halfway through the movie, I was thinking to myself. "Isn't this what I've read last night in the chapter of Matthew?"
Later, last night, I was watching the last couple of chapters of "Passion of Christ". I couldn't pretty much swallow certain parts such as the crucification process. As I was about to finish watching the movie, I saw that a close friend of mine had me back in facebook. Then, something struck me.
"Wasn't that what I prayed in my little prayer last night? That prayer of repentance?"
Well, things might not be back to normal, just yet. But, have faith, for He works wonders and He will always be there for us. Some things are just too obvious, not to be true. Here I am, an hour into the awaken world, I am blogging this not for the sake of telling parts and parcels of my life, but for He works wonders in my life.
He is my strength. From strength to strength, I will be better and stronger!
9:50 AM
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Sometimes, I just wonder if I can turn back time, how many things can I change. For the better, or for the worse.
Recently, there were quite a few happenings and I am on the verge of losing someone close to me, or rather, I had already lost her. Moments of angst, moments of madness. And, thus resulting in meaningless and silly things being done. Now, all I could do is to hope and pray. A repent prayer.
So. I guess these 3 months will be gone just like this; within a blink of an eye.
9:23 PM
Sunday, August 8, 2010
Gonna be yet another short blog post. I went for my usual sunday morning workout at the yck stadium with my parents. Usual, but unusual.
I was on the verge of collasping numerous times when I was on my way to the market for breakfast. In fact, I had to stop and sit down for about 4-5 times on the way there. My ears were both feeling numb and cold, and my mind was just concentrating onto the pavement in front of my footsteps. A blanked out mind with a subconscious body. A pale face, with half-opened eyes. Hell, it was one walk of my life that I would never want to repeat. ><
I couldn't remember the number of times I have prayed whilst I was on the way to the market. They seemed countless as I dragged my feet across the pavements with my mind wholly focused onto my prayers. Well, those prayers helped me through and I was well eventually. Pretty much thanks to His strength and the warm soya that triggered the conscious side of me.
10:51 PM
Friday, August 6, 2010
Here's a short blog post, as I will be having Basic Theory Test(BTT) early tmr morning. God bless me tmr!(:
The first week of my 2nd year in Lasalle, and hell it was very packed. A very big difference between my Foundation year and Level 1. More expectations are set in Level 1. I will need to perform once at least about 2-3 weeks, and the piece must be mastered and memorised. That alone pretty much explains all the stress in school, but I somehow like it. In fact, I am planning to work part-time as a piano teacher. I had some intros from my personal piano teacher, but I am still considering it as my future workload might be too much for me to take.
11:05 PM
